JUST DON GET IT! , IS IT MY FAULT!?

i felt so hurtfull ,felt so tired yet don know what to do!!!
I did not do anything wrong and yet i was gaven a face by you !
i don care what people think , but i only care what you think for me.
cry and cry every night when ever i think of you . and i will think that what i had done wrong .i want to get you by myside but i cannot , do you know the feeling!?
i also cannot show you my sad side .i could only give you a happy face .
is a fake smile , is it what you want?
cannot sleep last night till now!
i really want to know , what am i to you.
do you know how much i love you a not?

Hais.I just hate it when ,your are not by myside!
Just don know what to to le. In the pass
everything i did . i was wrong .I was stupit i was a fool .hais
but i really did change know !
You yourself also know that too!.
But why the result is still like this .
I really hate it know !?
I know you still love me but why you wanna let go?
You did see i change ,You did felt it too!
Why you did not even gave me a chance to prove it to you !
I am seriously in Loving with you Only know!
If time could turn back . i will sure love you better alot then last time , i am very sure!
But i did not !,I am Really Regret . i was Very Very Dumb not to treasure you !!!!
As everytime you said that you don like me !But i was not just like you,
I am Loving you ! yet not like only know.
I know now everything i say will not change the fact but
I would like to just let you know ,
i really wish you could just let me love you !
Loving a person have no wrong !
i want to be the first person to be with you when you are down ,
i want to lean you my shoulder
i want to be the first person you spent with when you are happy,
But sadly i don think i have this chance .hais..
not even spent a happy time with you ,
i really wish to be your everything!!!
when i scroll your blog and see the last time the post of yours .
i see le , do you know how i feel a not!I could only say myself . i could not blame anyone but only keep saying myself!,
when ever you say me . after the phone ,i cry ,i felt so heart pain .
After all you say all those words.
I will tell you here if you see this ,
My daddy that night call you not to scold you . just want to tell you that , he himself also felt that i am really in love with you !and talk wanted to you !
This is like my first time that i am so crazy in love with this gal!
Hais!, so Fuck up now , my mind was full of you .
I can just only keep go drink and drink ,just to forget you just for that few hours , but i cannot even do that ,
all this was just nothing , all i wanted you
just to be happy! and auto i will be happy too!

Sorry did not updated so long,
cause i was busy with some staffs uh .
then no time to update , everytime at outside then by the time come home late liao le .
Recently my life like not good luh,
studys also not good . everything not good.
Hais. hungry le , i wan go eat liao .
End here(:

i am like a bit xiao bored luh , now cannot sleep . suddenly think of blogging leis.
this few day did not make it to school. hmm. not really interested in study anymore le leis .
like go school to me like , no point le luh. also like so nothing to do nor .

Some time uh , i will suddenly think of you luh . out of no where!! ,like the things that we done before or the places we been to .
why , am i still do that .Teo Jie Kai!! WAKE UP luh!
when the other party is like , don really give a fucking dame about you luh.
I am like confuse , i don't know . what i really want now!!
Like i wan my things back for good! i also don't even have the courage to even tell that person luh , i am like fucking stress up luh. I feel like leaving school , and yet you told me not too.i don't know should i anot?
Aiya , lets see hows things go bah!
i will end here , photo will come up .in my next post!

shap shot ,by cherly

me and my mummy(:

HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS!(:
2010 huat arh!
wish you guys , have a brand new year .
Yesterday went to

1. My cosin house to celebrate with my cosin and family.
2. cab down to downtown to celebrate with my frens .
3. then cab down to paris ris park , summer breeze to drink and dance(The DJ Was well remix)
   
4. lastly cab home and sleep!(: